I love you forever

Whether apart or together,
I will love you forever.
No matter how many times the sun rises and sets.
I will for you forever.
Even if you forget the love that we shared,
Or if all you feel is hate,
I will love you forever.
For my heart has been stolen,
It has been set to one rhythm
The rhythm of you.
If you were to die,
The feelings I have will still be there.
I love you forever.
For you have a special place,
A part of my heart,
Even though you may not feel the same anymore.
No one else will make me feel the way you did,
Never will I feel so close to some one,
My other half.
We may grow apart,
But you will forever be my first love,
And for that I will love you forever,
Until death and even after death,
As we used to say.
_Marta_Flinn_

Float Up high

There isn't another place I'd rather be,
Sitting here
On these footsteps
My piece of heaven
Looking out into the deep ocean blue,
Allowing my thoughts to wonder
Oh what a joy it is,
To have nothing to do
Just getting lost in the colors,
Lost in the thought
Forgetting reality.
Imagining to fly,
To a place where no one can find me,
A place where I can hide
Perhaps never come back
Oh what a joy it is
But as I float back from the clouds,
the taste of the sweet ocean in the air
I am glad I am still here
Even if it is a mess at the moment

Making a Choice ( Just a self note)

This choice isn't easy one bit,
But since there is nothing holding me back anymore
I am setting my mind to it
I will be training myself for the next 7 to 8 months
To join the military.
It is something I have always wanted to do
And I think it will do me some good.
I will be getting into shape
Understanding my body
And finding a better understanding of myself
Through pushing myself to limits that I didn't even know I can do
But this is what I want to do.
It's what is best for me
If everyone around me is just leaving me behind
Maybe I should just leave people behind
Start a new chapter in my life
Travel the world
Do something that has meaning to me
I know that some may not agree on my decision that I am about to make
But its what I have to do.
It's what I want to do.

Beacuse you are

Some one once told me,

Don't you dare ever give up

Life is too short

Don't you ever linger on a thought for too long

For it could be your last

Don't ever act like you aren't worth something

Because you are

and most of all

Don't ever say you aren't beautiful

Because you most defiantly are!

Gone.....

When you loose some one
It almost doesn't seem real at first,
It comes at a shock,
No way,
It can not be true,
But as you go through the notions,
Of having to prep for a final goodbye,
A wake,
And a funeral
Everything begins to be clear,
They are truly gone.
There will be no more fights,
No more laughs,
No more memories,
Just old ones.
There wont be anymore hugs,
Or any midnight conversations,
Just silence
And you are left with so many open ended questions,
The what if's,
But the sad thing is that we have to deal with it,
We have to get up,
Walk forward,
And live life.

Him

There is this great guy I just met,
He is the sweetest thing on this Earth
He has the cutest smile,
And the corniest lines.
The way his face turns bright red,
When I make him smile.
The way his eyebrows go up when he likes something
And the way he curls his nose when he doesn't.
The sound of his voice just soothes me.
He is different
Something different
Something better.
He is perfect, with his imperfections.
The way his warm bodies lays next to mine,
I feel so safe, and at peace
The softness of his lips, the sweetest kisses I have recieved.
The way he holds me close like he will never let go,
And brings me closer to reassure me.
The way he stairs at me when he thinks I am not looking,
Is this real?
I hope it is.
The way I can just look into his eyes and never get tired.
The way he makes me feel.
I loose myself when I am with him.
A good kind not the bad.
There is something very different about him.
He is incredible.
The way he lets me know everything will be okay,
And I believe him.
Every time he calls me beautiful,
Somehow I believe him.
He brings a smile to my face.
A different smile.
Something better.
It's him.
He is making me do better.

Its faiting away

My heart sinks everytime I hear your name,
What you did to me
Becomes real,
Surfaces,
And breaks me.
I feel so disgusted by what you did
But yet some how
I find a way to forgive you
Even through my anger and rage
The feeling of heavyness is on my chest
It's just so hard to breath
I just don't get it
I dont understand
It shouldn't bug me
But it does
It still does
Because of you
I have to be extra cautious
Because of you
I can't allow myself to fall hard
I am just so scared
So scared of being hurt again
To love some one else
You are becoming this faint memory in my head
It's getting harder to remember the good with you
It's like this drug now,
All the bad is all I see
and it's not what I want to remember you as
I dont want to remember you as that jerk
But it's what it is going to be.
It's just the way it has to be
The beauty is no longer there.
It's gone