The Crazzies-Intro

Close your eyes,
Imagen a tall dark haired, tan asian, who is the sweetest person you can ever meet,
A tall thin blonde, with the prettiest eyes that have ever seen, a broken soul that is full of laughter,
and a chubby curly haired girl, who thinks she is a genius and tough but in reality is as scared as everyone else around her.
Three crazies
Brought together at the worst of times
but what they don't know,
is that they are meant to help eachother.
They will go through sevrual ups and downs in their lives, will grow up and will live life.
At the end of the day no matter how incredible or saddning the day has been,
they will always have eachother.
Even though family hasn't been there for them,
They have created their own type a family,
A community that they can trust and rely on.
(I will write more about their adventures togehter when I have time this is just an intro)
_Marta_Flinn_

 

New York

Oh how I long for you,
How I miss you,
It feels like forever even though its been just a few months,
I miss the strange smells roaming the air,
Different cultures on every corner,
People never really talking to eachother on streets,
The noise of sirens rushing through the streets,
The colors of fall on the ground,
The snowflakes falling.
I miss the music that flew through the wind,
So loud you wouldn't be able to sleep,
The icky trains that took you everywhere,
And Manhattan where everything took place.
The Broadway shows, that would leave you wondering if your life could be a musical,
The craziness of Time Square,
Looking at confused faces not knowing where they are going,
Sitting on the steps of the Metropolitan Museum of art enjoying a hot dog,
Watching the traffic lights go for miles,
But most of all watching the day time city become night,
Where all the lights glisen and the beauty awakens at night.
New York I love you, and miss you so much
_Marta_Flinn_

Our age

The lovely things that come from being the ages 18 through 21.
See people call you an adult but no one is treating you like one yet.
In fact some of us feel younger than we are because so many think they can take advantage of us, They think that just because we are this age that we can be used
because we are in the area of lostness,
and not sure where we are going.
Many of us make it alive well others of us dont.
This age is not easy.
I know, my friends and I struggle each day.
Trying to find what our meaning in life is
but we still haven't found it yet.
We seek for knowledge but we can not come to the end of the road.
The one thing that we forget,
When we get lost in the madness,
The horrible things in life,
Is that we are still young,
That we aren't alone, and that we are here,
Just like everyone else.
_Marta_Flinn_

Three, Two, One

Three, two, one
Breathe,
one, two, three,
cant make it stop,
three, two, one,
the thoughts coming back,
the anxiety kicking in,
one, two, three,
I just want to sceam,
Three, two, one,
The feeling that no one cares,
Loosing grip of reality,
Forgetting who I am,
Whoosh
Theres the swing,
BOOM,
Here comes the smack,
One, two, three,
when will this end,
close my eyes and count,
Three, two, one
One more drink to fill in the emptiness in my heart,
One more smoke to make the day go by,
One, two, three
What am I?
Who am I?
Three, two, one
Here comes the end
Poem by Marta G Flinn

Stressssssssssssssssss

OH MY GOD
WHAT THE HELL
I can barely keep my head on my shoulders
Why is my heart pounding so fast?
Is there a way to be able to BREATH
Life is going to fast.
I can't seem to keep up with the fast pace,
When I get close
It just seems to get a head start.
If I take one step back
I am lost
My hair feels like it's falling off
Feeling like I am enclosed
What do I do?
I am too young to feel this much stress,
Aren't I?
Just one thing after another,
But I am sure, I am not the only one trying to grasp for AIR
OH MY GOD
NOT THIS AGAIN
Where has the time gone,
I haven't finished
I need more time,
MORE TIME
This stress is driving me nuts
I need an outlet,
GRASP FOR AIR
STRESS, it's a creature thing
_MARTAFLINN_

A New Year is Coming

There is a New Year coming around,
And I've been thinking as to what I would like to change
But the more I think about it the more I say
"Wait a minute I don't want to change anything"
I am happy with who I am
But what I am not happy with is my actions
They are how ever my actions
The choices I have made over the past few months have changed my life
I am not studying in New York like I planned
I was but my anxiety took the best of me
I am still living in the past as much as I hate to admit that
I am not happy with my family
I am just not happy with how my actions have lead me to
But I am happy for the person that I am
And how I have dealt with these "mishaps"
I know that my mother has no respect for me and my plans for the future,
But if she does I wish she would show them
My siblings are strangers to me
And I my self keep pushing these people way
I think in a sense this past year what has really happened
Is loosing touch with the things that make me feel alive
It's never really been my family,
And it has taken me this long to realize,
That the only persons real approval I need is myself.
So this coming year
I am going to do things that make me happy,
If that is finally getting the courage to going back to school in New York then it shall,
Or if it is taking a new challenge and moving to a different state or country,
Maybe volunteering my time with people who need it,
Or just making new wonderful memories,
Reconnecting with people that I have pushed away,
Even being more vulnerable
What I really want is to just be me
And not let my (monster) eat me alive
I want to be at peace for once
_Marta Flinn_

A HOLIDAY GREETING

HAPPY HOLIDAYS TO EVERYONE AND

HAPPY NEW YEAR

THERE IS A LOT WE MAY TAKE FOR GRANTED BUT ALWAYS HOLD CLOSE THE ONE'S  YOU LOVE

FOR THEY MAY NOT BE HERE THE NEXT DAY

AND LIVE LIKE THERE IS NO TOMORROW

SMILE LIKE YOU FEEL NO PAIN

AND ENJOY YOURSELF

PLEASE BEAR WITH THE JINGLE BELLS VIDEO 

AND 

HOPE YOU HAVE A GREAT TIME WITH YOUR FAMILY, FRIENDS AND ANY ONE THAT YOU HOLD CLOSE!!!!!

SEE YOU NEXT YEAR